I am so ashamed!

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 I was 16  almost 17 when I was forced by my Stepdad Dick to join the United States Navy. 

I signed up for the delayed entry program.

I absolutely did not want to join the Military at this point in my life.

I withdrew from high school so that I could obtain my High School Equivalency in the state of Kansas.

This was a way for my Mom and Stepdad Dick  to rid themselves of me. 

There was  no way shape or form was I emotionally or spiritually prepared.

I did not get to graduate with my original class from Benton High School. This still haunts me today. I was a dropout.

I board the flight to Great Lakes Illinois for boot camp as a scared little child. Forced yet again.

I had just turned 17 when I arrived at boot camp. The most common things you hear in boot camp is that everyone is home sick.

That included me as well. I miss my friends. I miss my hometown. Most of all I miss Grandpa. He was dying from cancer.

I certainly did not miss the home I never had. The house full of hate, abuse, mistreatment, anger and rage. Alcoholic  Mom and Stepfather.

The only thing I wanted was to be at Grandpas. To be there for him.

I'm deployed overseas when I use my ability to find a way out of the Navy. I never wanted to be there in the first place. 

I was on my way to see Grandpa with a  General Disharge. Other than honorable conditions. Mentally unfit to perform duties.

At eighteen years old I am already a dropout from High School and a reject from the Military.

When I returned my Grandpa was not the same.  I stayed with him to help care for him. This would be the last time I have ever felt I had a place  or a purpose.

He had a final lesson for me to learn...

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Christina said…
You've lived a hard life and yet you still became an inspiration to so many.
November 7, 2020 at 11:02 AM
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